This week has been crazy, I saw the boy on Wednesday when he was just coming out the gym as I went to lifeguard training. I saw the him on Thursday twice. The first time was on the bus home from town, after he'd had work. He gave me a cuddle the whole journey and kissed me, it feels so comfortable but I know it's a bit on the coupely side which we agreed we'd stay away from. The second time I saw him, he had come swimming with his mum and his sister when I was at work. We didn't really talk to each other then, his mum has no idea, which is for the best. He was really cute swimming with his mum and his sister though, they obviously get on really well which is nice and when they were getting changed he came and gave me a quick kiss. It made me feel all giggly and girly, which is never a good sign.
I saw him again on Saturday he came here and we got a sandwich from the sandwich shop and walked the really long way back to my village to eat it. While we were enjoying our picnic, boy told me about one of my ex's sisters friends (who he used to work with so knows quite well) who had sent him a text telling him to stay away from me, really horribly referencing mine and the ex's last argument over the Christmas holidays. This girl was one of the one's who wrote horrible things about me on Facebook, but I really thought she'd got over her self and would just leave me alone, obviously not. It was a bit of a realisation though, it meant that obviously people thought there was something going on between us and as we'd agreed not to get coupley it meant perhaps we should rethink what we were doing. I didn't say anything at the time, I didn't even get upset, I left crying about this girls text until I was safe at home later. Instead I enjoyed the rest of the afternoon, cuddling and kissing out in my local countryside. Again it was a perfect afternoon. At one point he was kissing me and just stopped to tell me I was beautiful, it made me feel all happy and special but I know I need to watch out otherwise I'll end up falling for him and I don't want that just yet.
I told him on Sunday that perhaps he shouldn't come to my birthday drinks event (which I'm having with a few close friends this weekend) and he didn't take it very well. He didn't text me all of Monday and when I finally contacted him on Facebook chat things weren't great. I explained to him that he'd said he really didn't want a girlfriend and we were only dating so we couldn't keep acting like a couple. I'm not going into details as it was a rather complicated argument with lots of misunderstandings, but he basically said that he thought if we continued to act like we were we would get feelings towards each other. I don't really know where we are going to go from here, but it's certainly not simple. It's weird as we got on so well, I just think maybe it was completely the wrong time and situation. Hopefully he'll still want to go on dates as I think we could at least be really good friends. He's a really nice guy. *fingers crossed*
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