Today we had a chlamydia test and contraception talk. NO, I don't have 'the love bug', if I did I would be outside his uni room with a pair of shears to cut of his genitals.
However, the contraception talk did hit a nerve. The ex had issues with contraception, he was fine using condoms and all that, but we liked to be doubly safe and lets say he had issues over my body and what hormones and stuff went into it. I was on the injection, I can't have the pill because I get focal migraines. The injection wasn't going great, it made me feel sick and I was all teary and horrible and I wanted to try something different. When I told him, mid October, he said that if I ever, ever, ever got the coil he would leave me and never sleep near me again. It was weird, I could understand if it was some massive contraption, but then I saw one today and they're basically TINY, like smaller than a 50p in height and they look so simple. I wasn't even properly considering getting one when I was with him, it was just an idea, but him saying that really offended me. Should things mean that much, shouldn't it be a two way conversation, not a dictation. If anyone should have been doing the dictation about what goes into my body, shouldn't it me be?
Anyway, the day just hit a nerve for me. I'm really glad I'm out of that relationship. What would he have done if I'd of actually gotten the coil? I have no idea, but I bet it wouldn't have been pretty. Lets anybody who I end up with in the future realises I'm in control of my body.
However, the contraception talk did hit a nerve. The ex had issues with contraception, he was fine using condoms and all that, but we liked to be doubly safe and lets say he had issues over my body and what hormones and stuff went into it. I was on the injection, I can't have the pill because I get focal migraines. The injection wasn't going great, it made me feel sick and I was all teary and horrible and I wanted to try something different. When I told him, mid October, he said that if I ever, ever, ever got the coil he would leave me and never sleep near me again. It was weird, I could understand if it was some massive contraption, but then I saw one today and they're basically TINY, like smaller than a 50p in height and they look so simple. I wasn't even properly considering getting one when I was with him, it was just an idea, but him saying that really offended me. Should things mean that much, shouldn't it be a two way conversation, not a dictation. If anyone should have been doing the dictation about what goes into my body, shouldn't it me be?
Anyway, the day just hit a nerve for me. I'm really glad I'm out of that relationship. What would he have done if I'd of actually gotten the coil? I have no idea, but I bet it wouldn't have been pretty. Lets anybody who I end up with in the future realises I'm in control of my body.
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