Last night I went out for the first time. Like actually out, like in an actual club. I have been out before, but that was with ex and we didn't drink or dance or anything because what he said went. I went out with my friends and actually had fun. I couldn't remember how nice it was to just dance with friends and to feel guys looking at me, like actually looking at me. I didn't get with anyone, really wasn't interested, but I learnt the tricks of how to get drinks and drank them straight from the barman so not to get spiked. I'm a clever girl.
It was crazy, I didn't get overly drunk and had so much fun just letting go of all the school stress and just dancing. I can see now how everyone thought I'd got a bit stuck in a rut last year, I really was missing out. From now on I'm completely selfish and just looking to things for my own benefit, I need it I think. I don't want to miss anything again.
I also saw mancrushthing in town afterwards, I went into his work to see him. HE IS SOO TALL. I looked horrific. I stayed at my friends house in town overnight and woke up in the morning to ring home and basically be told that I couldn't come home till the afternoon as my family was out and I had no key. I was wearing last nights clothes but with tights and boots, I resembled a dishevelled eastern European prostitute. We met up for a bit during his lunch break and it made me so happy that he didn't care how awful I looked. He also noticed that I was looking at his bum, awkward, but he didn't mind so it was nice. He's nice.
It was crazy, I didn't get overly drunk and had so much fun just letting go of all the school stress and just dancing. I can see now how everyone thought I'd got a bit stuck in a rut last year, I really was missing out. From now on I'm completely selfish and just looking to things for my own benefit, I need it I think. I don't want to miss anything again.
I also saw mancrushthing in town afterwards, I went into his work to see him. HE IS SOO TALL. I looked horrific. I stayed at my friends house in town overnight and woke up in the morning to ring home and basically be told that I couldn't come home till the afternoon as my family was out and I had no key. I was wearing last nights clothes but with tights and boots, I resembled a dishevelled eastern European prostitute. We met up for a bit during his lunch break and it made me so happy that he didn't care how awful I looked. He also noticed that I was looking at his bum, awkward, but he didn't mind so it was nice. He's nice.
No comments:
Post a Comment