A mess this weekend. Aside from the fact that I'm more than a little bit miffed at rumours that my ex is taking his new girlfriend to Paris in half term, this guy I've been texting since New Years was supposed to be taking me out on a date on Saturday and cancelled Saturday morning with a 'hangover'.
I feel stupid. I really thought that I was getting back on track and I was really really looking forward to my date. I felt all silly and girlie and giggly, I can't remember the last time I felt like that. It was crazy. I was so disappointed and angry at myself for getting my hopes up so much. I really thought that maybe I was ready for a date. I'm obviously not, the let down brought back so many bad feelings and memories. I still feel so bitter that I'm being let down while the ex is fine. I shouldn't be feeling like that if I want to go out on a date with this guy.
The guy sent me a really nice apology text in the evening though, after I was noticeably annoyed. I really fancy him, so maybe if he impresses me then there will be another chance for a date. I may forgive him to easily, but he's been warned, I've been treated like rubbish before and I'm not taking that treatment again. I'm keeping my guard up, properly, I really feel that I'm not in a position to let myself like someone just yet. I'm still feeling pretty vulnerable so I don't think he's my someone, but I guess there's no harm in a date.
I feel stupid. I really thought that I was getting back on track and I was really really looking forward to my date. I felt all silly and girlie and giggly, I can't remember the last time I felt like that. It was crazy. I was so disappointed and angry at myself for getting my hopes up so much. I really thought that maybe I was ready for a date. I'm obviously not, the let down brought back so many bad feelings and memories. I still feel so bitter that I'm being let down while the ex is fine. I shouldn't be feeling like that if I want to go out on a date with this guy.
The guy sent me a really nice apology text in the evening though, after I was noticeably annoyed. I really fancy him, so maybe if he impresses me then there will be another chance for a date. I may forgive him to easily, but he's been warned, I've been treated like rubbish before and I'm not taking that treatment again. I'm keeping my guard up, properly, I really feel that I'm not in a position to let myself like someone just yet. I'm still feeling pretty vulnerable so I don't think he's my someone, but I guess there's no harm in a date.
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