He was never a big socialite during sixth form. He hated drinking, dancing and even posing for photos. I was was nearly the opposite, I've never been big on drinking, but I loved seeing my friends and going to parties. I changed for him, I barely ever wore makeup, spent my weekends having dinner or watching films with him instead of going to parties with my friends. It's not like I was annoyed at this though, I loved spending time with him, I liked nothing more than just being with him. It wasn't a bad thing at the time, I just changed the way I spent my time.
I know when you go to uni most people change, there are so much more opportunities that it's hard not to go out to parties every now and again but I didn't expect this. On the Monday after the break up he went out clubbing and the next day I was greeted with something like 50+ photos of him out in some top end city club, partying on a VIP table next to some stars of a popular reality show. There's one photo of him smiling and holding a massive bottle of champagne, what happened to never ever drinking? There's another photo of him with his arm round one of his female friends from uni, the one who he had casually joked that he would have fancied if it wasn't for me (this casual joke along with their constant flirting in my presence had lead to an argument a few weeks back so he knew that the photo would upset me) and their was a video of him and his friends creating a dance routine and singing along to the music. Not really the sort of behaviour I was expecting from someone who had just finished a relationship. Didn't make me feel great at all.
what happened when you met him on the Saturday?? Really good blog, I really feel for you but it will get better, just give it time and try not to look at those photos even though I know it'll be next to impossible! Keep yourself really busy, go out with your friends and meet new people! chin up lovely x
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how can you still see the picture of him? Some people react different to break ups..
ReplyDeleteI know it is hard, but try to not compair what you had to what is going on now..
It will get bettter x
I know it may sound stupid, but it's almost as if looking at pictures of him now, how he's changed, makes me feel better. Seeing photos of him as this whole new person reminds me for a bit of how he isn't the person that I was in love with. Thanks for the support. x
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