Sorry I'm late.

I know I haven't posted for the past few days. I'm just having a really hard time coming to term with what's happening. It's like I'm going through mood cycle's. I'll be fine and really excited and motivated to write this blog because people are actually reading it and that makes me feel good, but then I'll think that actually I have no one to share this success with. I haven't shown it to anyone I know and the person I normally share my successes with isn't interested and would never ever even look at me again if he found out. It's like I look at the blog and when I actually think about it I remember the reason why I'm writing it. I forget it's success and just think about the loss it represents.

What's happened since my last post is something I'm really find hard to digest. I've started the post. It's in my drafts and as soon as I can face up to it, I'll finish it and post it. Hopefully it will be a relief.