He had his university Christmas ball last night. I should have been there, dancing, looking pretty in a dress that would match his tie in the sickly way couples do that sort of thing. Instead, I was being distracted helping out at my school production, trying anything not to look at Facebook to look for photos or statuses. He is taking another girl, she is gorgeous with alabaster skin and long curly brown hair, the opposite of me. He commented on Facebook telling her to look pretty because he had standards to uphold. Made me feel well, not great.
I miss him so much, I still feel really lost and confused and I just want to see him. It's been nearly four weeks and I still feel crazy. When will things get better?
I miss him so much, I still feel really lost and confused and I just want to see him. It's been nearly four weeks and I still feel crazy. When will things get better?
Facebook- the worst thing ever invented- I think life was way better before social networking websites... Is there anything you can do to stop yourself looking at his page? Deleting and blocking him is the best way to go if you can bring yourself to do it.
ReplyDeleteIf you don't want to delete and block him maybe you could just shut down your account for a while- let people know beforehand that you are taking a break from Facebook for a while.
The sooner you get stop looking at him on Facebook the sooner you will get over him. Most people don't seem to be able to start the healing process until they have stopped themselves stalking their ex via facebook. Watching, via Facebook updates, your ex get with someone else just reopens the wounds on a daily basis.
It is still very early days for you.I didn't start to feel better until about the three month mark. What you are feeling is completely normal and things will get better in time. After a month things are still very raw and memories are still fresh.
For me, one of the hardest parts was that just about everything reminded me of him. I had to create new memories and new associations to replace the old and I guess that is why the passage of time is so important. You have to overwrite your life. Like reformatting a hard drive in a way.
I will comment that your ex sounds pretty horrible- certainly very superficial and arrogant. There will be someone better for you!
Facebook doesn't matter now, he's blocked me so I can't see his ball pictures anyway. Probably for the best in the long run, but now it just makes me think the worst.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the support x